If I Pretended

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Title : At loss.

Just as I thought everything will be okay .. it got worse. Well, people that are closed to me will know whats going at work and the reason why i'm leaving. & the reason i'm leaving is a family issue. Like you cant tell it to that person cause they are your family and if you spill the beans things would be awkward. Plus, I have to consider for the people around me. Then, I have this colleague of mine, she kinda know what happened & lately she's not very happy with me, dont know what I did also -.- SO! She went to tell me boss (my uncle) that im leaving because of some disturbing things have been bothering me. oh, and another reason im leaving is cause im heading for the books next year. Okay, then ... is like walao luh, if she isnt happy with me and wants me to leave and not be a threat to her that I might take over her, she can just tell my boss that im leaving cause im heading for the books and i'll be more than grateful to her. She went to tell him the reason, the reason that will cause awkwardness. CB can?! She still can tell me this .. "Im saying this to my boss at the risk of losing my job, and you know it clearly who im doing it for and anyway its none of my business." Fuck luh! I didnt ask her to help me tell my boss that im leaving pleasee! Say till like she sacrifice a lot for me and sine she say its none of her business, why she still go and tell my boss?! Fucking hell! Now, my boss is saying that I misunderstood him and will talk to me soon. Fuck, so awkward already how to talk! Damn!

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I dont have porcelain skin. I dont have the perfect figure. Im just another girl who cry herself to sleep at night, who gets butterflies in her stomach when her lover says 'Hi, Beautiful' Just another girl.

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I choose to live the second phase of my life as a pole-addict.