QUEENOFHEARTS

2010-11-01T10:45:00.002+08:00

Siti Syahida requested this post. and seriously i dont know what to write. She asked me to write bout her but sigh, she's so boring, nothing much to say *shake head* Fine, she's awesome I have to admit. Never fail to make me laugh, its like we laugh about the smallest thing on earth .. like tongtong, ni zai na li?! (this is one of our inside joke) Hahaha. And she's so loyal to her friends, she stand by you forever, though at times, she can be a lil idiotic -.- But I LOVE YOU CTEE!

2010-10-22T10:54:00.050+08:00

Hey, im still alive. I havent been blogging cause I was lazy. Uploaded pole pics and Laurier's event pics (: Enjoy.

Laurier's ARE YOU A SHOOTING STAR. oh yeaa, and sory, pictures are not in order. Oops!

2010-09-28T10:47:00.002+08:00

I added new colours to my nail polish collection and I painted my nails white (: & its a success ! I never thought I could paint opaque colours so properly. I told Ben bout it and he doubt my skills, damn him! I helped Bestie with her nails too, that clumsy woman can never have her nails properly done, idiot ! We went swimming last nigh but .. LACK OF MOTIVATION LARRR! Swim for awhile onlyy. HOW?! Getting very fat. *shake head*

2010-09-20T14:55:00.005+08:00

Hellooooo, im back to talk bout my friend again, We're like over the moon cause the long awaited arrival of the tote bag that she customized and ordered it online finally arrived! And I really really want to thanks her for everything! She's too good to be true! Let me show you the bag she got me and of course she got one for herself (:

Seeee! Very cuteee and sibey sweet for her to do this right?! Love her to the maxxxx!

This is the bag we planned to carry whenever we go swimming but I abit she bu de to use it. Damn!

OHHHH, and that stupid camera that we bought, the aqua one. TMD, haven use spoil liao. Dont know if the problem lies on us or the camera. Maybe its us, cause we're too fat to handle such fragile stuffs. Haiyayaya.

And SIYING, to me you're perfect tooooo. (i give up searching for pictures). Although you suck big time, it doesnt matter (:

2010-09-17T16:04:00.006+08:00

Hello!

Im happy today although I was quite irritated by the train system in th morning. One of the trains gave problems and it was super packed. Dont know how to explain I just hate MRT. Okay so .. my make-up brush set arrived (: I can do my vampy make-up for tomorrow's pole showcase. Yess! Oh &I finished the mini donuts Bestie got from JB. I didnt finish all by myself, I shared with my family and friends okay! Then I found out that Bestie & I had the same flavoured donuts ! Cinnamon!

Did I mention that Bestie got me nail polish too? I tested it last night and to my surprise, its was quite good for a cheap cheap two dollar nail polish. I used to have troubles painting my right hand nails cause im right handed & whenever I paint my right hand nails, I screwed up every single time. But last night was miracle (: Was super happy that I managed to paint my right hand nails with my left hand, Im in love with the colour too (Mangosteen red), Best choosed it for me (: She know my taste quite well uh. Btw, nail polish's from Etude House. AquaCamera arrived too. But our cute cute bag, Bestie overslept and missed the postman. Too bad.

looks like orange in the pictures but its red.

Anyway, Best's sleeping over at my crib tonight! We'll go swimming & then paint her nails for her. Hopefully, we'll be able to wake up early in th morning to have AhKun breakfast. Love the half boiled egg & the kaya+butter bread. Especially the butter is super TOK GONG! Best said that she'll follow me to class, hope she dont break her promise!

Most importantly, I looked forward to the Laurier's selecton for the ARE YOU A SHOOTING STAR contest. Fingers crossed. I also look forward to how the pictures will turn out (AquaCamera). And how my showcase will go, the Kotex WOW contest ( not sure what siit tho). Ahhh, my life's so occupied now. Love it this way (:

AND lastly, ive got a Mucocele (Myuu-co-seal). A mucocele is a swelling in your mouth. It can happen when a salivary gland is injured or blocked. You have many salivary glands in your mouth. They secrete saliva. Saliva is made of water, mucus and enzymes.Saliva moves from a gland into your mouth through tiny tubes called ducts. Sometimes, one of these tubes is cut. The saliva pools at the cut spot and causes a swelling, or mucocele. These swellings commonly occur inside the lower lip. They also can be found in other places inside the mouth, including the roof of the mouth (palate) and the floor of the mouth.Swelling also can occur if one of these tubes is blocked and saliva backs up in the tube. If swelling occurs because the submandibular duct is blocked, the mucocele is called a ranula. A ranula is quite large and appears under the tongue. ITS ALL CAUSE BY ME FOR BEING A LIP CHEWERRRR!! FML! I dont know if I wanna go for surgery cause its not cancerous. But if it dont grow any bigger then im fine with it. Ccb, hate this. Well, will see if it grow bigger. Hais!

2010-09-16T15:50:00.006+08:00

i went swimming again with Bestie last night (: was quite breathless last night, no idea why. but here are some pictures.

2010-09-15T13:35:00.002+08:00

the more I think of it, the angrier I get! fucked up brains you have, babe. you have nothing better to then make people's life miserable? Seriously, do yourself a favour and do us a favour. complaining and complaining. its freaking annoying, do you know that? hate hypocrites? you're one yourself. you always tell me say you treat me like your daughter, crap, is this the way to harm somone you treat like your own daughter. Fuck you! I never want somebody like you to be my mum, you bitch! you call this helping me? Fuck you again, retards know it you're doing this on purpose. I feel sad for ya, you've got too much free time to let your thoughts run wild. you always think that people out there got motive (dont know what lanjiao motive also). you think that one simple comment that is made, is a threat to you. You read in between th lines too much, actually thers nothing at all for ya to read larr. you know how scary it is to know that you can actually read something into something that never ever crossed their mind? you think everybody's so free to think so much bout how to harm you? its just a conversation betwen friends. i wonder if you got split personality, sometimes so nice, sometimes you're just a hard face bitch. no, you're one big backstabber! you often tell me, its not good to criticize people, then what bout you? havent you been criticizing us too? saying that we're selfish and stuffs? cmon, why you take things so hard? can say we always disturb you sommore. then when we dont talk to you, you got something to complain again. what the fuck you want?!

Pictures of Me & Bestie.

2010-09-15T09:12:00.014+08:00

we very loving right? we go everywhere together (: yeaaa, we're the go-toilet-together type of bestfriend. she go toilet with me is to help me take my stuffs when I do my hair, do my make-up. Thats why I love her so muchy muchy! Heee!

Bestie will be heading down to Msia today, but im not sure what time. Damn, im left to rot in the office without her crapping with me in facebook or over the phonee ):

Speaking of office, I really hate it here. Seriously, people who're 'round my age. DONT WORK WHEN YOU CAN STUDY! Working life is better than study life? Bullshit! I know what yall are thinking. Work got money what? Got money means better than study mey? Study parents keep nagging huh?

Well, in working life, your colleagues dont even bother to tell you whats your mistake, they stab you in th back. The most innocent thing you commented on, they'll get offended. Then they pretend as nothing happened then fucking hell STAB YOU IN THE BACK AGAIN! The things they use to stab you in th back varies from zoo to eyelashes. Yes, that scary. You think that when you treat people nicely, people will treat you nice too? Crap. Seriously, crap! In working life, you'll meet people that in your entire life, you'll never expect to meet. Ridiculous, bitchy, backstabbers, complainqueens, paranoid, sensitive, selfish AND stupid. Ive learned so much in this year. Ive met people I never expect to meet. Secretaries, the bitchiest group! My close friends will know why I said that. *chill running down my spine* Scaryyy.

Mine.

2010-09-14T23:11:00.014+08:00

I think my life's getting interesting. With Bestie around, life's AWESOME. Love those swimming session with her. Cant wait for the arrival of our new Aqua camera. Then we'll be able to snap those crazy moments ! We planned to do up a photo album of our swimmimg sessions. That would be cool ! Its gonna be something classic ten years down the road ! Love the idea. Oh yes, then we'll also be getting this three lens lomo camera. These cameras are so cuteee .. I want them all. The next one im aiming for is the barbie lomo. Pretty (:

my favourite BarbieLomo2!

three lens lomo (:

this one above is no other than our new AquaCam!!

& we participated in the Laurier's ''ARE YOU A SHOOTING STAR?'' contest. If we get selected for the contest, we can have th polaroid camera. Im sibey the excited for the results can? Pray hard, fingers crossed, I hope we'll get selected cause cause Bestie love that polaroid camera so much ! I want her to be happyyyyyy!

& for poleee, I havent decide on which soundtrack to use, havent yet plan my routinee, but for now, i'll show you guys what I have been doing with pole..

this is a gemini.

this is a nicer gemini (:

tammy.

a bat. very proud of my bat cause it took me hell loads of courage to do it.

hip hold (:

Yes, pole dancing is painful but I love it (:

I just realised that I left my camera in my office, shall continue tmr. I want to sleeep, nights (:

2010-09-13T11:04:00.002+08:00

Pole three is coming to an end. Im kinda worried for my showcase coming up this Saturday. The theme is twilight. TWILIGHT!! I dont know twilight ): But mainly, im afraid that I cant do my moves properly. Ribbon, corksrew and spiral(?) gave me a burned wrist. I can hardly do bow and arrow. What else? oh yea wrist sit, im still trying. & i must remeber to do craddle in this showcase, aiyarrr, i'll plan my showcase's routine...

I love my best friend.

2010-09-08T09:52:00.002+08:00

Shit, I forgot to bring my camera to work. Wanted to upload some photos, sucks! I love my best friend. Sometimes, I feel very guilty. Its like I havent been putting enough effort in this friendship. She have been sweet enough to buy my gifts from time to time, write me a letter and stuffs like that. I admit that im not thoughtful enough to buy her something she'll like or use it. She's always the one making an effort to remember the things I mention I wanted and if she happen to see it somewhere, she'll get it for me. She got me present on my birthdays. Damn, I cant even recall if I got her any presents on her birthdays. I failed as a bff ): Im lucky to have a friend like her. Very lucky that she understand my character. Im sorry, Best .. for not being thoughtful enough but I love you, I really really do.

i miss you.

2010-09-03T11:20:00.003+08:00

2010-08-30T10:22:00.002+08:00

Greetings love ones !! I just cracked my neck and it sounded like a monster's burp. But it feels so damn good. But I shouldnt be feeling good. I have been a bitch. I have to stop doing this. Its the second time and if I dont stop, more people will get hurt. Using other people to ease away my own emptiness. I need people to talk to me, pamper me, care for me etc. constantly. But Im not doing the right way. Selfish bitch, yes, me. I need to put a stop to all this crap. Damn !! I lack of shoppings and camwhoring. I want new clothes, new pictures and most importantly a pole.

2010-08-26T11:07:00.002+08:00

I feel extra bored today. Or maybe its just the laziness. When my alarm rang this morning, I grunted. I brushed my teeth sitting down on th toilet bowl. I went to work without make up. My dress and bag dont match. Im lazy to top up my ez-link card. I feel like shit.

2010-08-25T10:23:00.002+08:00

Before i knock off last night, I was ranting to Bestie bout my cravings. Was craving spicy food lately. Then I was on my way to meet Mummy for dinner, still thinking bout what spicy food to eat then some wicked aunty standing in front me was holding on to a packet of curry. There comes the tingling feeling at the back of my tongue. Heee! So I decided to have Curry Vegetable Rice Set from Water Rise. Awesome. Finally, satisfied my craves. Yums!

2010-08-24T13:32:00.004+08:00

I wanna say that im in an awesome mood today. & just hope nobody's gonna ruin it. Fortunately, even if somebody's gonna ruin my day, I have the sweetest people in the world to cheer me up. People like my Bestie, gosh! I can never stop myself from smiling when she's around. Not just smiling, I practically laugh my ass off at her hilarious comments & urm .. stupid actions. We talked bout everything except for boyfs, we seldom talk bout it. Boys = spoil my mood. Yeaa, my Bestie's a retard piece of shit but I love her. Oh oh oh, she just won a laptop from some contest. I secretly hope she'll be wonderful enough to give me her old one. Hee!

Nowadays, all I wanted is to keep myself occupied. The busier the better. Not busy at work but busy with my own stuffs. Who'd want to be busy at work? Work's boring. We look forward to weekends, dont we? First of all, I wanna sell all my storybooks away, in order to stop Mummy from nagging and I need money to buy more books. Secondly, I need to get a new Henna cone which means that IM GOING TO ARAB STREET! I love ArabStreet. So many pretty pretty stuffs and cheap too! Okay lar, not VERY cheap lar. Some stalls also damn ex lor. So if you people wanna buy stuffs, check the other stalls, might be cheaper. I mean like its ARABSTREET. Every stall sell almost the same things what! Okay, so im going to get a new Henna cone there, I'll keep the old one for practice !! & lastly, I want to go for facial, I need facial. I Need Facial. I NEED FACIAL.

SATURDAY. I shall squeeze everything into Saturday. I swore to myself Im going to make every of my Saturdays a eventful one. My plan is, we shall skip swimming, breakfast, off to ArabStreet, get lunch/snacks, go for pole (Bestie gonna come with meee!) AND AND WE"LL (Bestie, Me, Mummy, AuntyDoris & NikkiBaby) BE GOING TO NIGHT SAFARI :DD Cant wait cant wait. My Saturday awesome enough?

2010-08-19T11:40:00.004+08:00

Remember when we said the place we're living in is too small for us?

And then we wanted green hills, big patch of grass and us with no tall buildings, no cars, no trains, no noise?

Just like the picture up there. You know that I miss you, dont you?

At loss.

2010-08-18T15:42:00.004+08:00

Just as I thought everything will be okay .. it got worse. Well, people that are closed to me will know whats going at work and the reason why i'm leaving. & the reason i'm leaving is a family issue. Like you cant tell it to that person cause they are your family and if you spill the beans things would be awkward. Plus, I have to consider for the people around me. Then, I have this colleague of mine, she kinda know what happened & lately she's not very happy with me, dont know what I did also -.- SO! She went to tell me boss (my uncle) that im leaving because of some disturbing things have been bothering me. oh, and another reason im leaving is cause im heading for the books next year. Okay, then ... is like walao luh, if she isnt happy with me and wants me to leave and not be a threat to her that I might take over her, she can just tell my boss that im leaving cause im heading for the books and i'll be more than grateful to her. She went to tell him the reason, the reason that will cause awkwardness. CB can?! She still can tell me this .. "Im saying this to my boss at the risk of losing my job, and you know it clearly who im doing it for and anyway its none of my business." Fuck luh! I didnt ask her to help me tell my boss that im leaving pleasee! Say till like she sacrifice a lot for me and sine she say its none of her business, why she still go and tell my boss?! Fucking hell! Now, my boss is saying that I misunderstood him and will talk to me soon. Fuck, so awkward already how to talk! Damn!

2010-08-13T10:15:00.003+08:00

Woohooooo! tomorrow is Saturday. Will be heading down to Bestie's place first then off to Jalan Kayu for breakfast, PRATAS! Its been long since I had pratas, have been craving for them since god knows how longggg. And after breakfast, we'll go swimming, at the new-to-me Sengkang swimming pool, the one with the slide, if im not wrong. Never been there before. I promise I'll try to take pictures, and I'll post it if Bestie allows that, I pinky swear .. I know my blog's lacking of piccies and it looks so boring. No wonder nobody's reading. If you read my blog, tell me okayy, so that I'll have the motivation to blog!!

Edited

Finally, I knew what happened & whats going on. This is a big big relieved for me. People, be nice & wish me goodnight tonight okay? Cause I can sleep in peace now (: Tonight's gonna be a good good night (: Somehow I wished I could freeze those moments.

Ive never blame you for anything

2010-08-12T10:01:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday, went swimming with my bestie, Siying. Swimming session was great. Didnt really swim luh, like what my Mummy said, we just go there jim chwee (soak in th water) only (: After an hour or so, we both decided that we're hungry which means we needed food lor. We bathe ourselves, strolled to Esso, and bought chicken pie and curry puff, best lor! While walking home, we promised each other not to tell my Mummy that we had pastry after swimming session cause Mummy would drfinitely screamed at us for wasting our effort. By the way, I dont know what I did, my shoulder is hurting, Im not sure whether its th bone or th muscles. Worried that I cant do pole on Saturday. Shit! For now, im at work, us usual doing my own stuffs. Im mind-mapping on certain things, to have a clearer view (: And th marker im using stinks like hell! But Ive got no choice cause when I do my work, I need colourful markers. Remember when I was still in school, I had lots of pens & markers in different colours. Cool ! Right right, enough of yaking, off to continue my mind-mapping.

2010-08-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

I cant concentrate. Damn! I tried but i cant. Im sorry.

heart-wrenching.

2010-08-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait....Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!I love you, Mommy.Every abortion is just…One more heart that was stopped.Two more eyes that will never see.Two more hands that will never touch.Two more legs that will never run.One more mouth that will never speak.

2010-08-03T16:31:00.003+08:00

Ya ya ya. Everything also your brothers your brothers. I only have one precious day to get off work. & I wanted to spent that very precious day with you. Go swimming then sit around and talk like there's no tmr. Whats so difficult. You meet your brothers every single day. You meet me once a week pleaseee! I know I should be understanding that your brothers come first. But cant you make an exception for. Just once?! & all I do is sacrifice my time, my sleep and everything for you! You cant even spare a few hours for me lor. PEOPLE GIVE THIS JERK A ROUND OF APPLAUSE AND ME TOO, FOR BEING SUCH AN IDIOT! You think Im like you schooling people? Fancy enjoying school holidays? & have all th time to yourself?! I cant! Im a seventeen year old girl and I dont have time to myself! Cause I dropped out of school and im fucking hell working! Every single holiday is time for me to sleep, eat and watch tv! Not to drag myself all the way just to meet you for an miserable one hour or two! But just for you, I did everything! Nothing beats you! NOTHING. If I get my ass out of the house, I want to hang out as late as possible. The reasons why Im going crazy bout all this stupid issues cause I feel like you're treating me like thrash! Whats the use of keeping my cool trying not to get angry you? But I bet you didnt even realised it. You said you wanted to sleep i said okay when I used to bug you, pestering you to talk to me. You took for granted, you took me for granted. You took granted of my easy come easy go temper. You know I cant stay mad at you for long & you took granted of that.

2010-07-29T14:28:00.002+08:00

Waaa! Really buay tahan my colleague can?! Guess what happen? She ask me to help her collect her print job at some photocopying shop. When I got there, the sales person told me that I could actually ask their man to deliver it to my office because its damn freaking heavy. Since im already there, I decided to lug that bag of paper back to the office. Suah! Of all days, the sun is schorching hot today lor! When I finally reach the office, she didnt even thank me for helping her carry that heavy load back, first thing she said was, can help me count how many sheets of paper are there. Crazy, few thousand sheets of paper ask me to count, she must be out of her mind luh! She think I machine mey?! Got machine dont want to use, ask me(human) to do. Sot sial. Just slot it into the photocopier and let the machine do th job luh! Sotplug!

2010-07-26T09:53:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, back here blogging. Thanks to the video I uploaded in Facebook. Its taking forever so I decided to blog while waiting. Cause I have no patience (: I look like a fully transformed zombie as I was yaking away on the phone till 4am in the morning & I got a wake up call at 7.30am -.- & unfortunately, today is the best-weather-to-sleep day. Still I have to drag myself to this oh-so-boring office. Oh yes, Saturday, went for Punggol Carnival. My secondary school is 10 years-old, so cool!! Its been a long time since I went back to school. The surrounding is totally different. Comparing at those time when Im in SecOne, to me Punggol is just a huge patch of grass. Now, my school is surrounded with HDBs, lucky for smokers. Haa! Okayokay, then I went AcroPolates super early to practice for showcase. The video uploaded in facebook (: Have to put in more effort and got to practice more. Still cant do wrist sit. Cant do bat. Hais. But I believe I can, soon .. soon. Heehee. Pole-lust !

2010-07-15T12:14:00.002+08:00

Hiak hiak! Didnt go to work yest. Doctor for MC & Mac for lunch with Mummy. Went Germaine's crib, wait for Kzel. & off we go !! Like finally. For lifeeeee (: But love it. Went back home with five chicken wings. Had two. Mummy had threee. Damn nicee. Ughh, I dont know what to say! BYE

2010-07-12T13:46:00.002+08:00

Hehe, I feel surprisingly happy on a Monday. Still, I think its because of an AWESOME Saturday I had. Woke up on a Saturday morning, smiling to myself. Knew it will be an wonderful day for me. Had pole practice later in th day.The scrape on my leg turned into a huge patch of blue & black, th biggest orh cheh ever. Feeling good though im aching ALL OVER. Lastly, I miss that boy.

Saturdays

2010-07-09T09:25:00.002+08:00

Yay yay yay! Tomorrow is Saturday, which means its PoleDay! My precious two hours of pole-dancing. xoxo.

I cant wait to see my sexy babes too! Very sexcited! Actually im very surprised that Ive grown to love pole dancing so so so much. Im usually that kind of half bucket shit person, whatever I do, I give up halfway. Im surprised because, pole dancing isnt easy at all. I remember the first time I came in contact with the pole was at the trial class. After trial class, my arms hurt so much, okay luh, maybe its because I dont do excercise :p I was thinking to myself, what the shit, what have I gotten myself into?! But now, I LOVE POLE POLE! & I go gaga whenever I see pole. Even those at the fitness corners or playground. Haa! & now, although bruises is what I get after every pole class, im so proud of myself being able to learn another, be it spin or invert (: Pole dancing also give me a peace of mind. Dont ask cause I have no idea why too. Just know that my passion for pole dancing .. ineffable.

Anew

2010-07-08T21:43:00.005+08:00

I revamped my blog. I deleted all my previous post, in a way to delete my past as well. Im happy the life im living right now. Never felt this good in a long time already (: Ready to be myself again. I guess im ready to give that toothy smile again. It will be in a long long time, to see me cry again. I love myself.